June 12, 2019
Who Am I? How Did I Get Started?
You see, a long time ago, I fell in love. With dirt and plants and flowers and the joy those bring to me. When I’m in my garden, I feel connected; to the earth, to the things that give life, to the beauty they bring to myself and others and to my past. My family is a flower family. Generations of us have used flowers as our therapy. We get recharged there.
I can remember begging my mom and grandma to let me plant my OWN flowers, to have my OWN garden, to plant my OWN things. As a mere 6 year old, I knew that love of soil and worms and pollen and knew that my heart lived there. And I couldn’t wait to get out there. I couldn’t wait to be part of the beauty of that yard. I used to bask in the glory of how people would stop and gaze at my grandma’s garden, they’d tell her how beautiful it was, how it was a solace and place of peace. What they may not have realized at the time was that the garden oozed her peace. It blossomed with the care and love she showed everything, and she was one of many in our family for many generations who cared for and loved all living things.
As I created florals for numerous weddings and events, the thought crossed my mind, "Could I ACTUALLY do this?" Self doubt clouded my vision and dreams.
It was just slightly post wedding of dear friends, mid wedding dance, and my best friend- who is also in the wedding industry- asked, "Why aren't you doing this as a business?" I didn't have a good reason. I love this. I love the challenge. I loved creating. I loved showing my littles what hard work done well, with pleasure, looked like.
That was over a year and a half ago. Since then, there have been ups, and there have been downs. I have been exuberant and exhausted at the same time. The sleepless nights. The stained, cracked fingers .The kids playing video games and popping in and out to help with buckets and stem cutting and bouquet holding. This is what I signed on for. And it took getting started to remember how much I can give. How much I have to learn; from life, from other professionals, from my clients, from my family, from flowers themselves.
So now, I'm passing that on. My husband and I are teaching my boys to work hard. To love beautiful things. To dedicate time. To learn how to be present and accounted for life's moments.